Semper fi

No weeping no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now
You hold me now

My Ba Noi passed away this afternoon. I was preparing for this all week, though most of the time I was in denial... just hoping that I would be given the chance to see her just once more, to listen, to touch the woman who led her children, her village, to Christ. I just keep thinking really God, why our family? Why did you choose our family? There's less than a percent of Christians in Vietnam and probably even less two generations ago, but God in His plan puts US in it. I am in tears... in awe, in gratefulness, in speechless praise. 

She waited 90 some years to meet her Savior face to face and that brings such peace in my heart. But it's never easy to lose someone you love. To know that my dad, my uncles and aunts are mourning cuts me so deeply.... it's unbearable. I think and imagine losing my parents, and it brings urgency to not waste my time with my parents. They are the reason I found hope in Christ through the their love for Christ and their unconditional love for one another. 

I had more to write, but there's too much... 

God, you are good, but I pray for just your sufficient grace and comfort pour over all who are mourning. May we never stop praising and thanking You for Your steadfast love and faithfulness to us. 

   “Worthy is the Lamb, who was slain, 

   to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength 

   and honor and glory and praise!”

Days like these I feel so alone. Christ cover me and give me strength. 
I am not alone crying; Christ heart breaks too.